I recently took a few months off to grieve the loss of my Mother.

I’m proud to report that even through this difficult time I have stayed clean and sober. To me, sobriety includes staying out of prostitution. I am getting back into the swing of things and will be more available for hosting meetings or just getting together for coffee if you need someone to talk to.

The “Tap Out”

What is it? Two taps of the hand “tap tap”

When do you use it? In an anxiety, stress, or fear situation.

How do you use it? You can tap out on your own, to give yourself permission to leave a place or situation. Or you can use it with a friend, or romantic partner to put things on hold.


On My Own

For me, if I tap out in public… that means that I need to leave as soon as physically possible. I may walk out of a meeting, or the grocery store (leaving my selections behind) or maybe it means that I pay for dinner and go. The tap out gives me a way to leave a situation without having to hash out WHY I need to go.

This helps me with two things: 1) That I don’t have to justify the feelings that I’m having; I have the right to stay or leave based only on that. 2) That I am back in control of my own self, that I get to decide.


With a Partner

The tap out also works in romantic or sexual situations. There have been lots of times that though I wanted something in the beginning, as things progressed I got ‘in over my head.” Because of many past experiences, it has taken a long time for me to be vocal about what I honestly want and need. The tap out is a safe way to say “No, I’m not ready yet” or “I changed my mind” or “I don’t want that.”

When I tap out in a romantic situation, I like to be given a little space to breathe but I don’t like to be left alone. It is my job to explain that to my partner. Make sure to adjust the tap out for your specific needs.


Not an Excuse

Lastly, communication is key. The tap out isn’t an excuse to avoid a conversation about your feelings. It is to be used to avoid escalating a situation. It is important that once you are composed that you have an open an honest conversation about what happened, to the best of your ability.

You are not alone